Who am I ?
Welcome to my blog; Journal of a Yogini.
Well, briefly I am a backpacker yogini from Istanbul, Turkey, called Gonca!
Here, I would like to share my journal regarding traveling, yoga and things that inspires me as I am collecting and realizing every single day.
I raised up in Istanbul, Turkey with all the Turkish traditions and always told by my teachers and family to face towards to the West. So, I always felt like, me and people like me, have the synthesis of both the East and the West, which is something exotic. After I graduated from university, I started working on a very specific field for corporate companies. After not so long, I realized that the life I had should have had more contentment and joy which comes from the inner self. I felt something missing in me. I read books, watched movies, criticized things, drank and ate the best ones, traveled and saw new things… but still that big hole was in me, telling, there is something more real in me.
So traveling when I have day offs -that is something rare-, attending events, doing fitness inside of walls were not representing me. I realized that I was living my life part-time!
While these ideas were occupying my mind, me and a close friend started blogging about traveling so that at one point we would go for traveling around the globe and share our adventures with the others. www.dunyakacbucak.com still has this mission to inspire others in our mother language; Turkish. During these dreams were waiting to become true, I worked hard, involve in urban life and spent my energy and money to stuff that makes me happy just for a few seconds.
After I started Yoga, I sensed that it is not gonna happen by only dreaming. If you have an intention to do something, you need to sow a seed, in order to sow, first you need to dig the earth and sow your seed. After this process, you need to irrigate. And still it’s not enough, you need to take care of it, protect that place, make sure that sun lights there and you again irrigate it until it becomes a tree, maybe then you can leave it to mother nature’s hand. Therefore, I stopped contributing the urban lifestyle which is controlled by capitalism and began to live my life simply, even though I still had to work for that system.
And eventually, my seed sprouted and I had the courage of leaving my life behind and start from the beginning. It just happened after I took my first Yoga Teachers Training Course (YTTC) in Turkey. Yeah, good guess; my journey started later on.
As a person who is simply burning to find out on my own Truth, I let go of everything. Cause, I knew that only if I could leave all my attachments behind, I would find myself. I took another YTTC at Sivananda Ashram Yoga Farm, Grass Valley, CA and spent 3 more months after accomplishing the course to get more experience about teaching and continue learning. After retiring into my own shell, without no plan, I decided to go to India, into the heart of yoga and again with no effort and plan, I became a traveler.
I meditated on the footsteps of Himalayas in India,
I hiked to most amazing peaks of Himalayas in Nepal,
I saw the greatness of Angkor Wat in Cambodia,
I heard the most amazing chirps in Sri Lanka,
I vibrated with the energy of pagodas of Bagan in Myanmar,
I felt blessed seeing the most beautiful sunsets in Thailand,
and I witnessed the silence of Sahara Desert in Morocco…
Before this 1 year trip, I saw many countries in Europe, but never felt being a part of the nature like this and became free. Yes, my backpack let me free…
Now, I still on this endless trip to myself and still yearning to go back to the realm of discoveries with those beautiful people of those beautiful lands. From now on, I promised myself to write my journal every day to share my experiences, adventures and the things I do to maintain the fire of exploring new things in me.
This will be a very challenging project to keep writing every day, and will be a bumpy ride for me since I will not have this urge to write every single day in me. So you will see my ups and downs, but I promise whatever I write, you will gain something, at least a little smile on your face.
Then, let’s begin!