Bengi and I met through Instagram while we both were traveling around Asia. Then, when we were both in Thailand, we met in person in Bangkok. After eating some, chatting some, we easily shared our true story to each other. My new life which is living in a parallel universe kind, has influenced Bengi to make me a guest of her blog called ‘Dunyanın Durakları’ -meaning the stops of the world- as one of the ‘Inspirining Women‘. So let’s see if my story would inspire you?!
Inspiring Women | Interview with Dunyanin Duraklari
Here are my decisions made after the age of 31 through answering 5 key questions and how I broke ties, hold on to yoga and the change of the sense of living on this planet. So my story is revealing here. Asked by Bengi, sincerely answered by me. So shall we start inspiring?
Can you tell me about yourself? Where were you born, how was your childhood?
I was born in 1985 in Istanbul. I grew up in a very ordinary neighborhood, in an environment surrounded by people who have little dreams. I could not even imagine that I could be such a person today… I was just a hard-working and responsible kid. They always said, ‘Her future will be brilliant.’ I am convinced that those who say it associate money with brightness, but I think I disappoint them. Because as I was stepping toward a position that many have dreamed of, I suddenly refused that future of me. I saw poverty, and I had good days too. Just before breaking out of my comfort zone, I was living in Nisantasi one of the most beautiful districts of Istanbul, as a free woman who enjoyed life through the gatherings of her career. But something was missing. And this could not be solved by money or a fancy life. My path drove me to the road…
As long as I can remember you experienced a very radical process of change, and this was influenced me a lot. Why did you need such a change? How did you handle this change and get out of the way? Was there anything motivating you?
I think everyone needs a change. Change has to happen. There is suffering because of the lack of a change… I think the ones who are in bondage of corporate lifestyle live with the pain of being unable to change.
For me, the change actually manifested itself. I did not force myself. Change has happened. While I was working from 9 to 6 and sat on a chair dreaming of traveling around the world one day was the only thing that kept me alive. And it happened finally. Just after accomplishing my Yoga Teachers Training Course in Turkey, I realized immediately that I couldn’t bare it anymore. And I finished my preparations and got out of the way.
My motivation was myself. I had started to explore my own power.
What changed in your life after you adopted Yoga as a philosophy of life? What was the first difference you felt in yourself?
I actually experience simplicity through yoga. Certainly the first thing I felt was lightness. It was like everybody including my family, my boss, the society had an expectation from me. I reduced my responsibilities little by little. It got out of my body, of my closet, of my heart, and of my mind … Sometimes it came out as tears… I confronted myself. In order to resume my life, I had to completely destroy my old identity first. I built a new one by keeping the ones I love from my old identity and forming new habits.
Was there anything that you wanted change but couldn’t?
Good question. I don’t know the correct answer right now. Sometimes when I was on the road, I felt shot into pieces and I dropped into my own black hole. After all, it was not easy to be alone, to choose to be alone for a long time.
I don’t think I have a feature I want to change. There are fluctuations from time to time, of course. Do I give myself hard times in these situations? Yeah. But it’s not something I’d like to change. Because the change is natural. And it will either happen to be whether I want or not. I just want to be a better version of me every moment. That’s all…
What do you want to say to people who want to go out or think about changing their life but somehow fail because of the fears in their minds?
I will give an objective answer. I do not want to uplift anybody for nothing. Because if you’re not ready, you are not ready. When you go, you bring yourself with you. So it’s not fair for everybody to just run away in order to get rid of the things which are in their own minds.
The person has to be ready first mentally not financially. While I was mentally ready, I thought that I was going to solve the money situation somehow and experienced it. I think there must be an ideal that traveler holds on to. This can be of course, to see the places you want to see, to check your bucket list but I think it should be beyond. There must be something truly feed the person mentally and spiritually.
After that, it’s slice of a cake. Good days and bad days will be. But there definitely will be countless memories which are once in a lifetime.
I say my own ideal; to be able to survive out of my comfort zone. And I think I made it:) After 1 year on the road, I am not that old Gonca.
THANK YOU BENGİ!